9:00 p.m., I'm in the bathtub, completely submerged... sounds are faint and muffled and I like it that way.
I was a competitive swimmer for 7 years, like junior olympic style and I swear the reason I was a well adjusted child was because I spent so much time under water with nothing but time and my own little thoughts. For 2 hours a night and 3 on Saturday mornings it was me, the wake from the kid in front of me and a quick sprint through the deep end of every lap because, well, who knows what really lives down there.
So back to the bathtub (and I promise this is G rated): the thought of resolutions bubbles up.
Resolutions? I NEVER make them - but in that moment, I made a deep end decision. I've shared before that I write this blog as a way to keep time (something I hardly believe in) and because I simply love the art of styling and photography, but lately the move toward blogs, especially girl blogs and personal style blogs more specifically, to focus on shopping posts and selling has become the over saturated norm. I love a fabulously styled outfit, however, that's not exclusively what I'm here for.
So here we are - the bathtub resolutions - there's three things I intend to do on Oui We in 2015:
1. Tell stories. Through photos and writing, in partnerships and on my own, every post will tell a story.
2. Create. Styling and music and all the art forms that I love, create it and then share it here.
3. Travel. And document the places and people along the way.
And as I thought further on this I decided to do a little resolution research and came across Marilyn Monroe's resolutions jotted down in her address book in 1955.
Here's her notes in full:
Must make effort to do Must have the dicipline to do the following –
z — go to class — my own always — without fail
x — go as often as possible to observe Strassberg’s other private classes
g — never miss actor’s studio sessions
v — work whenever possible — on class assignments — andalways keep working on the acting exercises
u — start attending Clurman lectures — also Lee Strassberg’s directors lectures at theater wing — enquire about both
l — keep looking around me — only much more so —observing — but not only myself but others and everything — take things (it) for what they (it’s) are worth
y — must make strong effort to work on current problems and phobias that out of my past has arisen — making much much much more more more more more effort in my analisis. And be there always on time — no excuses for being ever late.
w — if possible — take at least one class at university — in literature –
o — follow RCA thing through.
p — try to find someone to take dancing from — body work (creative)
t — take care of my instrument — personally & bodily (exercise)
try to enjoy myself when I can — I’ll be miserable enough as it is.
What I absolutely love about this is the fine detail specifics of the things she knows will make her better and the clarity she has of who, ultimately, she is. So like Marilyn, I'm focused on the effort and the discipline and plan to enjoy myself along the way - most definitely on the good days and when the misery strikes as well.
p.s. When writing my first post of the year - crying, reflecting, breakdowns - I thought "who is this girl sharing all that detail?" I'm rarely emo and certainly not in front of anyone, but like the ever fabulous Joan Didion said “I write entirely to find out what I'm thinking. What I want and what I fear.” When I sit down to write, I'm often not sure what I'll say and when I wrote that Monday morning post it's just what came out. Normally that level of inner thinking would make me nervous but a few days later I'm grateful - I've had more feedback - emails, insta posts, texts and calls than from any other previous post. And as we're all getting this year going, I know we've all got this, and are in it together.